Miracles do exist!

As I sit here typing this, I can't even begin to fathom the what if's or the how's or any of the other questions that might arise with the event that took place yesterday.  All I can understand is that miracles do take place in our times! And God is ALWAYS there!

Now let me back up.  Addilee is a big time climber, she climbs on everything! And she also loves to explore and just cause trouble.  But that is her, that is her personality.  She has recently become obsessed with stairs and ladders and anything of that sorts.  My family and I were outside taking down the swimming pool and the girls were just playing in the sand box.  Well I looked over again and Addilee had climbed up the ladder to get to the slide.  (its one of those big wooden playgrounds that has a little tower to get down the slide on) anyways she was just sitting on the base getting ready to go down the slide, which she has done by herself already, so I wasn't super worried.  I still was keeping an eye on her though.  Well, I happened to turn my back for 5 seconds and next thing I know she was crying, and not her usual mom I want attention cry.  It was a cry of distress, a cry of I need help.  I turn to see what was going on and she was hanging onto the playground and dangling.  As I was running over to her I kept thinking man she has strong arms  I can't believe she is holding herself up. My mom was thinking the same thing.  Well when I got over to her my heart dropped! She wasn't hanging by her arms, she was hanging by her head! Somehow she slipped all the way down and got her head wedged in between the ladder and the base of the slide.  She was completely helpless.  Once I got over to her, her cries had turned muffled and she didn't have much breath left.  It was all she could do to let out any sound.  (And mind you I wasn't very far away maybe only 100 feet) I quickly got her unstuck and cuddled her for a good while.  I monitored her the rest of the evening and into the night and she is just as spunky as ever! She is still my monkey and she is still my little girl!

As I am reflecting on this and after talking with my mom about it on our run last night I have come to a realization that 1. Things could have been a lot worse! It honestly could have been fatal.  2.  God watches over us even in our most helpless states.  3.  When we feel like we are alone, we never are! He is always there!
I know that without a shadow of a doubt that if anything had gone any differently Addi might not be here with us today.  If we had been in the house and hadn't heard her crying for help, If she would have snapped her neck as she fell, or if she hadn't been able to let out any cry.  I do know that with Davy being gone all week long God has sent us a few extra angels to keep watch over us.  I know this because I have felt their comfort and their protection over me and the girls.  I know that he does know of our struggles and our hardships.  I know that he is aware of our situations and that he will guide us through them if we just allow his hand.  I know that without Him I wouldn't be able to make it through these tough times of doing things on my own.  I'm so grateful for the miracle that happened to us yesterday and for the love that I felt when I knew that she was okay.  That moment that I picked her up in my arms and let her know that everything was okay, I felt picked up and comforted in His arms also!

Now enjoy some cute pictures :)

Baseball camping fun! 

I am truly blessed! 

Bittersweet Moments

Well this is kind of sad since I haven't posted since Addilee was 10 months old.  Now she is almost 14 months old and is acting so grown up already.

Addilee loves to eat just about anything pasta.  She loves all kinds of fruit, especially watermelon.  She wears size 18-24 month clothes.  She chews on literally EVERYTHING! She is a big time climber and gets into just about everything she can.  She is such a funny girl with so much personality.  She loves to constantly watch her sister and loves to copy everything she does.  Addi is definitely way more of a trouble maker than Kennedy ever was so that is a new experience.  She is also so lovable and cuddly.  She is mostly sleeping through the night, with only one wake up but if you rock her for just a minute she goes right back to sleep.  She is starting to get two cute little dimples and it looks like she is going to have strawberry blond hair with green/brown eyes.  She has the cutest smile and she scrunches her nose when she does smile.  We love our little Addi Mae and wouldn't change her for the world.

Now onto the bittersweet part.  It is so weird being in this stage of life where you wonder, should I have another baby now or should I just enjoy the two little girls that I have now in their fun stages.  Then have a baby later.  I know that I want more kids and whenever I see a little baby I keep getting the feeling that I want that! I want another newborn.  I want to be pregnant again.  Before Kennedy turned 1 I was pregnant with Addilee so it is so strange thinking that I'm not pregnant this time around.  I know that when the time is right it will happen.  We have had so much going on lately with Davy being gone Sunday night through Thursday night.  With us possibly building a house where we put in the labor of building it.  And so many other factors that would be tough bringing a baby into.  I then am so grateful that with my last two pregnancies I have pretty much been able to plan when I wanted to get pregnant.  I know that with so many women they aren't so lucky.  Whether it be that they have fertility problems, or maybe some other issues they are trying to figure out, I feel for them.  I cant physically feel what they are going through but I do emotionally feel for them.  I know that pretty much every woman wants to be able to bear children and be able to feel that amazingly miraculous baby grow and develop inside of them.  To feel those first kicks, to feel their hiccups, to feel them jabbing into your ribs when they are about out of room. That is our role after all as mothers isn't it? To bear and nurture children. I feel like every woman that wants to be a mother will be one. Whether it be through someone else's children or your own, every woman that has that desire can have it. Even if you can only be a motherly figure, sometimes that is the greatest blessing for children. 

As I sit here writing this while cuddling my sick baby I am reminded how amazing and how innocent these little ones are. Their personalities come out so quick and they learn so much especially through our actions. As I grow to understand my role as a mother I know that I am so far from perfect, but I do know that I am perfectly perfect for my girls. We learn from each other, we teach each other, and we also are growing together. As I learn to accept my weaknesses and strive to develop them I know that I can do anything through Christ. I love how patient and loving my girls are and I love that they see me as their mother no matter how many flaws I may have. 

Although I don't know how this will come over because it is entirely ramblings, these are my thoughts and I needed to write them down. 

10 months!

Alright I know I am way late with this, and its kind of pathetic because I really don't have any excuses.  But my little Addi is growing up way too fast! She is already 10 months old and I don't think it is okay. I honestly don't even believe it!

She crawls all over the place and has done so for a few months now.
She pulls herself up to just about anything.
When she is standing she loves to dance, or do the little booty wiggle.
She just learned how to say hi, and bye bye.
She waves by moving her fingers and it is the cutest ever.
Just within the last couple of weeks she has gotten 1 bottom tooth and 4 top teeth.
She absolutely adores her sissy.  She can even say sissy.  Every morning when Addilee wakes up she looks for her sissy.  The moment she sees Kennedy she gets so excited and crawls over to her as fast as she can.  I love the bond they share with each other.
She loves just about any kind of food!
She loves blowing raspberries on any piece of bare skin she can find.

Addi is just an overall great baby!! She is happy most of the time, and a big time mammas girl! She loves to cuddle and get into just about anything and everything! She loves to explore and she what kind of trouble she can get in.  She adores her big sister and would do just about anything to please her.  She is a big time drama queen and makes sure everyone knows it!

We love you Addi Mae don't grow up too fast!

Since Kennedy is now a few months over 2 and Addilee is now almost 8 months I guess I need to do an update on them... 

Kennedy

• Loves Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, Doc McStuffins, Sofia the First, and just about anything else on Disney Junior.  She also loves Frozen, Monsters Inc. and Lilo and Stitch
• Loves singing and dancing everywhere and anywhere! 
• Is not shy at all! Wherever we go if she sees any kids she has to say hi!
• She has a very exciting and big imagination.  
• She Loves her baby sister  to pieces and usually tries to keep us happy! 
• She is a smarty pants, she knows the ABC song, I love to see the temple, Jesus wants me for a Sunbeam, Let It Go, Popcorn Popping, row row row your boat, once there was a snowman, and i'm sure there are more but I cant think of them now.
• She surprisingly loves the doctor and would go often.  She loves having sleepovers at nana and papas house.
• She is a very picky eater, but she does love cereal and milk, hot chocolate, Horchata, rice and homemade tortillas.  
• She is a fun outgoing little girl, she loves to be a pleaser and loves to keep her sister happy.  She is a beautiful, tall, skinny little girl.  We love the fact that she always keeps us going! 
• One of her favorite songs is Happy, She can be in the worst mood ever and that song will come on and it will completely change her mood.  

Addilee 7 and a half months

• Loves getting into just about anything and everything! 
• She puts everything in her mouth. 
• She sits up very well and would actually prefer it most the time.  
• She also rolls around everywhere! She definitely knows how to get around. 
• She is chunky as ever and weighs almost as much as Kennedy.  
• She is starting to copy things that everyone does.  
• She loves her big sister Kennedy and watches her constantly! 
• She is usually a well behaved and happy little girl.  
• She has a hard time sleeping at night.  
• She is a sweet loving little girl.  

I LOVE my little girls so much and I'm so grateful for them! They both have very different personalities which I love! I do love that Addi is starting to get old enough that she and Kennedy can play a little bit.  They are becoming so fun and I love them to pieces!