Thursday, September 24, 2015

Miracles do exist!

As I sit here typing this, I can't even begin to fathom the what if's or the how's or any of the other questions that might arise with the event that took place yesterday.  All I can understand is that miracles do take place in our times! And God is ALWAYS there!

Now let me back up.  Addilee is a big time climber, she climbs on everything! And she also loves to explore and just cause trouble.  But that is her, that is her personality.  She has recently become obsessed with stairs and ladders and anything of that sorts.  My family and I were outside taking down the swimming pool and the girls were just playing in the sand box.  Well I looked over again and Addilee had climbed up the ladder to get to the slide.  (its one of those big wooden playgrounds that has a little tower to get down the slide on) anyways she was just sitting on the base getting ready to go down the slide, which she has done by herself already, so I wasn't super worried.  I still was keeping an eye on her though.  Well, I happened to turn my back for 5 seconds and next thing I know she was crying, and not her usual mom I want attention cry.  It was a cry of distress, a cry of I need help.  I turn to see what was going on and she was hanging onto the playground and dangling.  As I was running over to her I kept thinking man she has strong arms  I can't believe she is holding herself up. My mom was thinking the same thing.  Well when I got over to her my heart dropped! She wasn't hanging by her arms, she was hanging by her head! Somehow she slipped all the way down and got her head wedged in between the ladder and the base of the slide.  She was completely helpless.  Once I got over to her, her cries had turned muffled and she didn't have much breath left.  It was all she could do to let out any sound.  (And mind you I wasn't very far away maybe only 100 feet) I quickly got her unstuck and cuddled her for a good while.  I monitored her the rest of the evening and into the night and she is just as spunky as ever! She is still my monkey and she is still my little girl!

As I am reflecting on this and after talking with my mom about it on our run last night I have come to a realization that 1. Things could have been a lot worse! It honestly could have been fatal.  2.  God watches over us even in our most helpless states.  3.  When we feel like we are alone, we never are! He is always there!
I know that without a shadow of a doubt that if anything had gone any differently Addi might not be here with us today.  If we had been in the house and hadn't heard her crying for help, If she would have snapped her neck as she fell, or if she hadn't been able to let out any cry.  I do know that with Davy being gone all week long God has sent us a few extra angels to keep watch over us.  I know this because I have felt their comfort and their protection over me and the girls.  I know that he does know of our struggles and our hardships.  I know that he is aware of our situations and that he will guide us through them if we just allow his hand.  I know that without Him I wouldn't be able to make it through these tough times of doing things on my own.  I'm so grateful for the miracle that happened to us yesterday and for the love that I felt when I knew that she was okay.  That moment that I picked her up in my arms and let her know that everything was okay, I felt picked up and comforted in His arms also!

Now enjoy some cute pictures :)
Baseball camping fun! 

I am truly blessed! 

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Bittersweet Moments

Well this is kind of sad since I haven't posted since Addilee was 10 months old.  Now she is almost 14 months old and is acting so grown up already.

Addilee loves to eat just about anything pasta.  She loves all kinds of fruit, especially watermelon.  She wears size 18-24 month clothes.  She chews on literally EVERYTHING! She is a big time climber and gets into just about everything she can.  She is such a funny girl with so much personality.  She loves to constantly watch her sister and loves to copy everything she does.  Addi is definitely way more of a trouble maker than Kennedy ever was so that is a new experience.  She is also so lovable and cuddly.  She is mostly sleeping through the night, with only one wake up but if you rock her for just a minute she goes right back to sleep.  She is starting to get two cute little dimples and it looks like she is going to have strawberry blond hair with green/brown eyes.  She has the cutest smile and she scrunches her nose when she does smile.  We love our little Addi Mae and wouldn't change her for the world.

Now onto the bittersweet part.  It is so weird being in this stage of life where you wonder, should I have another baby now or should I just enjoy the two little girls that I have now in their fun stages.  Then have a baby later.  I know that I want more kids and whenever I see a little baby I keep getting the feeling that I want that! I want another newborn.  I want to be pregnant again.  Before Kennedy turned 1 I was pregnant with Addilee so it is so strange thinking that I'm not pregnant this time around.  I know that when the time is right it will happen.  We have had so much going on lately with Davy being gone Sunday night through Thursday night.  With us possibly building a house where we put in the labor of building it.  And so many other factors that would be tough bringing a baby into.  I then am so grateful that with my last two pregnancies I have pretty much been able to plan when I wanted to get pregnant.  I know that with so many women they aren't so lucky.  Whether it be that they have fertility problems, or maybe some other issues they are trying to figure out, I feel for them.  I cant physically feel what they are going through but I do emotionally feel for them.  I know that pretty much every woman wants to be able to bear children and be able to feel that amazingly miraculous baby grow and develop inside of them.  To feel those first kicks, to feel their hiccups, to feel them jabbing into your ribs when they are about out of room. That is our role after all as mothers isn't it? To bear and nurture children. I feel like every woman that wants to be a mother will be one. Whether it be through someone else's children or your own, every woman that has that desire can have it. Even if you can only be a motherly figure, sometimes that is the greatest blessing for children. 

As I sit here writing this while cuddling my sick baby I am reminded how amazing and how innocent these little ones are. Their personalities come out so quick and they learn so much especially through our actions. As I grow to understand my role as a mother I know that I am so far from perfect, but I do know that I am perfectly perfect for my girls. We learn from each other, we teach each other, and we also are growing together. As I learn to accept my weaknesses and strive to develop them I know that I can do anything through Christ. I love how patient and loving my girls are and I love that they see me as their mother no matter how many flaws I may have. 

Although I don't know how this will come over because it is entirely ramblings, these are my thoughts and I needed to write them down.